Everything happens for a reason

If thoes words are so true then why must this hurt more than anything that has ever hurt before ? why did this happen its true sometimes when people say history repeats its self becasue it has ... and unforintly this is one of thoes things i cant belive i dident see happening ..... its almost as tho last summers repeating it again but with twists and turns because theres no more school and it seems theres no more chances for anything to be fixed , things iv heard things iv said and somethigns iv even said its nothing that can be fixed so i must lay in my bed that is made and just let eveything lie where it does and just let things go move on and live for the now the only thing i can do